mama's boy

my mom got back into the country the same time my sister walked out of the church a married woman. it has been almost a year and a half, maybe more, since she came home. this time she was hoping to attend my sister's wedding. unfortunately circumstances prevented her, or made her decide, to put it lightly, not to follow at the reception.

first of all, she was a long distance away from where we were at the time. it would've taken, at the least, 2 hours to get to the reception area, and by that time the main program may have already ended. second was of course the fact that relatives from my fathers' side were there and somehow, (she related to us when we met the day after the wedding) she did not want to cause a scene, which was probably what others would think if she arrived at that time.

can't blame her, though i know that she really did want to come. i felt sad knowing she was crying that night...all she wanted was to see my sister, her first daughter, in a gown, getting married. what mother would not want to see that? what person would deny her that right?

i'm sorry ma, i know partly we are to blame for that...we (your children) could've done something for you; despite it all, we became afraid as well... but know this, i won't let that happen again. when my younger brother and other sister get their turn at the altar--and even on my own big day--i'll make sure you are there from start to finish. if nothing else, you will not be denied that.